When Is The Right Time? (or, Those Three Little Words)

As many of you might recall, I’m in a relationship. One that is simultaneously exhilarating and internally disturbing. I love him, yet I feel so distant from him at times. Today, he was at the house I was housesitting, and we were watching a few movies, most of them chick flicks (which I do enjoy watching, usually). The movie of the evening was Steel Magnolias, featuring Sally Field, Dolly Parton, Julia Roberts, and numerous others I couldn’t begin to name. One line from the movie stuck in my brain more than the rest, prompting this post (spoiler alert):

I’m fine! I can jog all the way to Texas and back, but my daughter can’t! She never could! Oh God! I am so mad I don’t know what to do! I wanna know why! I wanna know why Shelby’s life is over! I wanna know how that baby will ever know how wonderful his mother was! Will he ever know what she went through for him! Oh God, I wanna know why!

I really enjoyed the movie, and my boyfriend cried at that line, as did I. The words don’t do it justice, it’s something you must hear. However, I had to ask a question of myself: just when is the right time to say those three little words that every person in a relationship would die to hear? I love to say it, and my boyfriend won’t really reciprocate. I understand why not, however, so that doesn’t bother me. When is the best time to say the words, though? In the middle of a serious conversation? At the end of a bitter fight? In those silent moments that are not only inevitable but desirable? In the uncomfortable silences that happen randomly? When is the best time to say those words for the most impact?

I’m not really sure. I’d love to be sure. It’d make life easier. I know I love my boyfriend, and I know that I could fall in love with him with time. I’d just love to know when the right time to say “I love you” is. Anyone out there know?

How The Internet Hates Me

Sometimes, I just feel like time passes way too quickly for my own good. Not too long ago, it seems, I wrote about how my hiatus was over. I was writing some things to post on here, and I was thinking of some really cool things to tell you guys about. That quickly fell by the wayside when my internet access went down the tubes.

I’m a 56k user, so my connection is dependent on a lot of factors, such as the usage of the telephone, noise in the line, how reliable the phone company is, et cetera. Well, the line running through our neighbor’s property apparently got a hole in it and the cable started to corrode. A corroded telephone wire adds a noise to the line, which makes internet of tolerable speed impossible. So, long story short, my internet hated me, and I simply focused on my studies. I should be back without further interruption, hopefully…

…unless life again gets in the way of good intentions, in which case I’ll try to tell you before it does.